ok,heres the deal. i always feel fat,too small,and i never feel like anything is enough as far as size goes.
im a pretty good sized guy. but even if i got to be ronnie colemans size,i probably wouldnt feel satisfied with my size. he'll,they look "normal" to me. dont get me wrong,they are huge. ive just been lookin at their contest pics for so long..i guess all the "AWE" is gone and they look normal to me.
im just wondering why i cant seem to be happy with anything about me or my size,anymore?
ive heard of bigorexia. so,maybe ive got a case of that. who knows,maybe if i had a set of 24"-ers and the body to match,i might be closer to being alright.
but back before i lost my job and all 3 years ago, i had a bit over a 20" arm,and i wasnt happy with it. so,again, i wonder if the "24's" would be good enough?
ive lost 16lbs and 2" off my waist. im down to 245lbs. i can wear a 36" jean and be comfertable. i have an 18-3/4" arm the last time i checked(last week when i weighed myself),and im startin to se the lines on my top 2 abs..........and this isnt enough to me.....wtf?
im a pretty good sized guy. but even if i got to be ronnie colemans size,i probably wouldnt feel satisfied with my size. he'll,they look "normal" to me. dont get me wrong,they are huge. ive just been lookin at their contest pics for so long..i guess all the "AWE" is gone and they look normal to me.
im just wondering why i cant seem to be happy with anything about me or my size,anymore?
ive heard of bigorexia. so,maybe ive got a case of that. who knows,maybe if i had a set of 24"-ers and the body to match,i might be closer to being alright.
but back before i lost my job and all 3 years ago, i had a bit over a 20" arm,and i wasnt happy with it. so,again, i wonder if the "24's" would be good enough?
ive lost 16lbs and 2" off my waist. im down to 245lbs. i can wear a 36" jean and be comfertable. i have an 18-3/4" arm the last time i checked(last week when i weighed myself),and im startin to se the lines on my top 2 abs..........and this isnt enough to me.....wtf?
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