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Bodybuilder and adult film star Erik Rhodes dies mid steroid cycle.
Cause has yet to be revealed. Here's the cycle he was on taken from his blog which has since been removed but still found in google's cache. "My cycle right now… 3000 mg of Test Enanthate a week, 2500 mg of Nandrolone Decaonate and 300 mg of Trenbolone Acetate. With 5iu of Human Growth Hormone everyday. I’m waiting until i pop. Or my liver to fails… which every comes first."
With his death at the age of 30, Erik Rhodes has people talking again. People have bantered about why we care if a porn star died, have said that he brought this on himself, have locked themselves in rooms in tears, and even been so crass as to say he deserved it.
His real name was James, and he was a larger than life personality who meant different things to a lot of different people.
James was an enigma who in many respects represented the apex of what the gay communality idolizes: he was young, beautiful, muscular, masculine, tall, hung, sexually insatiable, and honest about the character he played in our society. He knew he needed help, begged for it and shunned it at the same time.
It was his “inevitable demise” — words used by James himself in posts that seemed to dare death. He seemed unstoppable. In a word, he seemed “invincible.”
James consumed more drugs, steroids, sex, and attention than 10 regular men. Even those who thumbed their nose at his actions somewhere inside acknowledged that they envied some aspect of him. But his death means more than that. While many who tangentially enjoyed his company may claim to have known him, there is a bigger picture that says more about us than it does him.
People can judge him for his excesses or his career, but it was us who wanted to see those limits pushed and us who consumed the product he became. While many roll their eyes at porn actors, without an audience they wouldn’t exist.
He was an iconic figure to many, but his pain was evident to those who knew him intimately. His recent breakup with long-term boyfriend was crushing. To those who knew the couple, he was more than a collage of faults and didn’t need 10 guys; he only needed one. James posted in his own words, “He was the only thing that made me keep my feet on the ground. I don’t think anyone will ever know me as well as he did, and honestly I don’t want to let anyone get that close to me.
Cause has yet to be revealed. Here's the cycle he was on taken from his blog which has since been removed but still found in google's cache. "My cycle right now… 3000 mg of Test Enanthate a week, 2500 mg of Nandrolone Decaonate and 300 mg of Trenbolone Acetate. With 5iu of Human Growth Hormone everyday. I’m waiting until i pop. Or my liver to fails… which every comes first."
With his death at the age of 30, Erik Rhodes has people talking again. People have bantered about why we care if a porn star died, have said that he brought this on himself, have locked themselves in rooms in tears, and even been so crass as to say he deserved it.
His real name was James, and he was a larger than life personality who meant different things to a lot of different people.
James was an enigma who in many respects represented the apex of what the gay communality idolizes: he was young, beautiful, muscular, masculine, tall, hung, sexually insatiable, and honest about the character he played in our society. He knew he needed help, begged for it and shunned it at the same time.
It was his “inevitable demise” — words used by James himself in posts that seemed to dare death. He seemed unstoppable. In a word, he seemed “invincible.”
James consumed more drugs, steroids, sex, and attention than 10 regular men. Even those who thumbed their nose at his actions somewhere inside acknowledged that they envied some aspect of him. But his death means more than that. While many who tangentially enjoyed his company may claim to have known him, there is a bigger picture that says more about us than it does him.
People can judge him for his excesses or his career, but it was us who wanted to see those limits pushed and us who consumed the product he became. While many roll their eyes at porn actors, without an audience they wouldn’t exist.
He was an iconic figure to many, but his pain was evident to those who knew him intimately. His recent breakup with long-term boyfriend was crushing. To those who knew the couple, he was more than a collage of faults and didn’t need 10 guys; he only needed one. James posted in his own words, “He was the only thing that made me keep my feet on the ground. I don’t think anyone will ever know me as well as he did, and honestly I don’t want to let anyone get that close to me.
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