I still wouldn't touch roids if I were you, don't get me wrong but I'm 100% sure your problem comes from your diet and steroids really aren't magical drugs... truth is, it will slowly help you lose fat if your diet is awesome the whole way... but if you go overboard just once or twice, that weight will be gained back in as little as a few days. Also, the water weight will definitely be difficult to handle if your self conscious like me.
As for your strength trust me I understand, I used to be the kid who couldn't even do a single push up! Not even half way! And who used to be fat as fuck. Now I can max bench 352lbs... and do over 70 push ups... it just takes time... but then sometimes starting over isn't the worst possibility.. you might lose muscles- but you'll lose the fat and then you can follow a good slow lean gain diet and then start a cycle and you'll have AMAZING results
As for your strength trust me I understand, I used to be the kid who couldn't even do a single push up! Not even half way! And who used to be fat as fuck. Now I can max bench 352lbs... and do over 70 push ups... it just takes time... but then sometimes starting over isn't the worst possibility.. you might lose muscles- but you'll lose the fat and then you can follow a good slow lean gain diet and then start a cycle and you'll have AMAZING results
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