7 wks from today, i will be on stage. time to get serious. time to focus. time to buckle down. no excuses. no "i'll do that tomorrow" or no, "i feel tired". no more weakness, period. no more mistakes, no matter how small they are. it's time to dial up the OCD to 10 and focus. no more time for distraction. no more wasting energy. no more being petty. everything is being pulled in and evaluated. i have no room for uselessness. everything has to have it's purpose. my days are so full now. they are planned from the minute i get up to the time i go to bed. my meals travel with me. my muscles are sore as i work my manual labor job. 2 toes are forming blisters and i feel them as i walk all day. then walk more on the treadmill after training. i'm not complaining though. this is the life i choose to live and i fucking love every minute of it!!!

i learned some time ago that i'd go crazy if i lived my life this way 365 days a year...but for 7 wks? i can do ANYTHING for 7 weeks.

i decided to start my tren today. 1 week earlier than my plan, but my plan is just an outline. i have room to move this up or push them back. to take more or less. i decided it was time. i haven't run tren in several years now. this should be...interesting.